Because Of Him

      I was talking to my friend after school today and we were talking about high school crushes. I have "the boy talk" with almost every girl but today was different, and it had me thinking. How powerful can these feelings be ? This friend of mine was bullied and unhappy for awhile, but because of this guy, she was at least a little more happy. She kept telling herself that he would want a girl who is happy, fun, and who doesn't cry. I stopped caring if this crush will like her back or not, and whether or not he's good boyfriend material or not for the first time, because I was glad that even though this guy has a girlfriend and my friend is quite upset because of that, they are friends and he is basically supporting her. She is happy and staying strong because of him. Even though I am a little concerned because this kind of support can be weak, it still sounds so romantic and dreamy.

      It's like those movies where a person is changed forever because of love. It's like those stories where they are finally happy because of each other. It's pathetic and sad, and if you look deeper into this love, the thought of waiting to meet that person who will change you and help you go through your problems, the thought of being friends with your crush and just waiting for him to see that you're the one who cares about him the most, and then the thought of seeing your crush getting into a relationship but you can't do anything because you're his friend shows that it doesn't always turn out. You know what sucks the most for high school crushes ? You get busy and stressed out with school work and you forget about him, until you see him in the hallways or in the classrooms. It's the excitement and the happy feelings that eventually leads us to sadness and loneliness. Love keeps us on our toes. Love is like dancing in a rainy thunder storm. It's dangerously beautiful yet so exciting and surreal.

      Do we actually know what love is ? Well I don't, but I think my friend is in love with this guy. What even is love ? Is love what makes a person change ? Is love what makes the impossible possible ? Is love that indescribable feeling of a soul mate ? Or is love just a feeling our brain tricks us into believing ? I have mixed feelings about soul mates, to be honest. As beautiful and romantic it sound, the thought of only one out there among the seven billion people on Earth is just sad. Like why should we even bother anyway !? Everyone can have their different definitions of love and their opinion on "soul mates".

      We have to realize that this is just high school, and there's a really really small chance that we will end up with our high school sweet hearts.Crushing on a boy in high school is stressful, emotional, exciting, fun and risky, and maybe that's what teenagers need in their life. Maybe they need something to try and something to feel. 

Editor: A.B.